Hi Palak,
Agar tum ye letter padh rahi ho, to sabse pehle thank you. Is page ko kholna bhi tumhari marzi thi, aur iske liye main tumhara shukriya karta hoon.
Main ye letter isliye nahi likh raha ki tum guilty feel karo, ya apna decision badal do. Main sirf wo baatein likhna chahta hoon jo shayad main kabhi theek se keh nahi paaya.
Sabse pehle… I’m sorry.
Agar meri kisi baat, mere gusse, meri zid ya meri insecurity ne tumhe hurt kiya, to uske liye dil se maafi chahta hoon.
Sach kahun to mujhe tumhe khone ka bahut dar tha. Shayad isi dar ki wajah se main kai baar overthink karta tha. Kai baar tumhe samajhne ke bajay main apne fears ko zyada sunne lagta tha.
Iska matlab ye nahi ki jo mujhe feel hota tha wo jhooth tha. Wo meri feelings thi. Lekin shayad un feelings ko express karne ka tareeka sahi nahi tha.
Tumhari ek baat mujhe hamesha yaad rahegi—tumhari smile.
Jab bhi tum hasta thi, mujhe lagta tha ki din achha ho gaya. Shayad isi liye tumhare birthday ke liye bouquet dene me mujhe itni khushi ho rahi thi. Main bas tumhe khush dekhna chahta tha.
Aaj jab hum saath nahi hain, tab mujhe akela feel ho raha hai aur shayad tumhe bhi ho raah hoga.
Main ye nahi kahunga ki hamare beech koi galti sirf tumhari thi ya sirf meri thi. Shayad hum dono ki soch kuch baaton par alag thi. Aur hum un differences ko milkar solve nahi kar paaye.
Jo bhi ho…
Main tumhari respect aaj bhi karta hoon.
Aur dil se dua karta hoon ki tum hamesha khush raho, apne sapne poore karo, aur zindagi me bahut aage badho.
Agar kabhi future me tumhe lage ki hum ek baar shaant dimaag se baat kar sakte hain, to main sunne ke liye hamesha taiyar rahunga.
Aur agar tumhara decision final hai…
To main uski bhi izzat karunga.
Thank you, Palak.
Meri zindagi ke ek khoobsurat chapter ka hissa banne ke liye.
Take care of yourself.
Always.
— Suraj ❤️🙁